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Saturday, January 21st, 2006
6:41 am	copper mountain muahahahahahahaha! (Comment on this)
Wednesday, January 18th, 2006
11:26 am	all i have to say is matisyahu .....that is all. (Comment on this)
Wednesday, January 4th, 2006
10:15 pm	69ing stolen from nicole hope you don't mind 69 questions Body: 1. Initials: JAT 2. Name someone with the same birthday as you: nope never found anyone (10-14-77) 3. Where was your first kiss? depends on the kiss but i suppose it was when i turned 14 my mom died and this girl jennifer was comforting me and i kissed her 4. For or against same sex marriage? for, 4, fore. 5. Are you homophobic? no i'm homosapian 6. Are you bisexual? no although some would like me to be 7. Do you believe in God? god, budda, allah, "the universe", gods and goddesses, different names for the same purpose to offer guidence in life 8. How many U.S states have you been to? cali, colo, neveda, utah, new mexico, wyoming, just 6 9. How many of the U.S states have you lived in? 1 colorado 10. Have you ever lived outside the U.S? No 11. Name something you like physically about yourself: my blue eyes and my ass 12. Something non-physical you like about yourself: my passion 13. Whats your moms first name? debra 14. What is your dream car? honda civic hatchback 1994 15. If you could go anywhere in the world where would you go? ireland 16. Have you ever had someone of the opposite sex sleep over? more than i can count 18. Do you download music? as much as humanely possible 19. How many illegal things have you done? define illegal 20. Where would you want to go on a first date? fairmont cemetary at night 21. Would you date the person who posted this before you? yeah nicole's cute 22. Has anyone ever sang or played for you personally? dunno 23. Ever been kissed under fireworks? yesh 24. Do you like president Bush? no i like the other bush 25. Have you ever bungee jumped? not bloody likely 26. Have you ever white water rafted? not yet 27. Has anyone ten years older than you ever hit on you? yes quite a bit 28.Have you ever dated anyone 10yrs older? nope just one girl 3 years older 29. Have you met a real redneck? if you wanna be mean about it 30. Are you racist? fuck no 31. What song are you listening to right now? mars volta-televators 32. What is your current favorite song? DM never again 33. What was the last movie you watched? grosse point blank 35. Where was the last place you went besides your house? my lesbian girlfriends house 36. Have you ever seriously vandalized someone else's property? yeah but that was a long time ago 37. Have you ever hit someone of the opposite sex? yes i accidently broke my best friends nose we were rasslin 39. What's the first thing you notice about the opposite sex? eyes and laugh 40. What really turns you on? cosets, petticoats, spanking, and her 41. What do you usually order from Starbucks? Caramel apple cider xtra caramel 44. Say something totally random about yourself: i'm so angry right now 45. Do you have an iPod? what what did you say take that back! 46.Has anyone ever said you looked like a celebrity? yeah neal patrick harris 47. Whats your dad's name? william 48. Do you have braces? nope 49. Are you comfortable with your height? no i'm always hitting my head on cabinet corners 50. Do you like someone right now? yes still and it's not fair... but that's the way it is 51. How tall are you? 6 ft 3 52. Do you speak any other language other than english? a little spanish(el salvadorian) a little german, a few words of french, japanese, souix, chinese, and russian 55. Have you ever ridden in a limo? yeah always for funerals though 56. Has anyone you were really close to passed away? my mom my grandma and 4 friends in my arms so very close 57. Do you watch MTV? not anymore tv sucks 58. What's something that really annoys you? people not responding back 59. What are some things you really like? Sex, darkness, passion, poetry, girls in glasses, roses, clothes, and bondage 60. Do you like Michael Jackson? i still love his music but i think i have lost respect for him 61. Can you dance? yes quite well 62. Have you ever surfed? yeah on snow 63. Do you know how to pump gas? what are you implying? 64. Do you drive? more than you do( 300 plus miles a day) 65. What's the latest you have ever stayed out? out not sure, up maybe that's a better question 76 hours 66. Have you ever thought that you were honestly going to die? yes once when i had the flu last year and two weeks ago when i got food poisening i even asked god for help and i'm not christian its amazing the lengths one will go to when they are terrified lying on the floor dropping temperature rapidly, and unable to call for help 67. Were you ever rushed by an ambulance into the emergency room? yeah 5 times 68. Have you ever been dared to do something you didn't want to do? yeah jump a fence and out run a bull ummmm he caught the seat of my pants and nudity ensued 69. What's your favorite state to live in? confusion Current Mood: angry (Comment on this)
Thursday, October 13th, 2005
5:52 pm	Tomorrow october 14th is my birthday at least i remembered it. (Comment on this)
Friday, October 7th, 2005
6:50 pm	stolen from larabesque THREE NAMES YOU GO BY: 1. chonta 2. guitrez 3. jay THREE SCREEN NAMES YOU HAVE HAD: 1. maqoites 2. forgottyn 3. defekte deutsch THREE PHYSICAL THINGS YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF: 1. eyes 2. place between my thumb and first finger 3. stuffings THREE PHYSICAL THINGS YOU DON'T LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF: 1. teeth 2. hair or lack thereof 3. stomach THREE PARTS OF YOUR HERITAGE: 1. souix 2. irish 3. Scottish THREE THINGS THAT SCARE YOU: 1. dying soon 2. crappy drivers 3. wasps THREE OF YOUR EVERYDAY ESSENTIALS: 1. hygenics 2. glasses 3. music THREE THINGS YOU ARE WEARING RIGHT NOW: 1. black 2. levity shirt 3. boxer briefs THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE BANDS OR MUSICAL ARTISTS [at the moment]: 1. mars volta 2. ani difranco 3. front 242 THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE SONGS [at the moment]: 1. front 242- 1, 1, 2029 2. propaghandi-fuck religion 3. unkle- Rabbit in your headlights THREE THINGS YOU WANT IN A RELATIONSHIP: 1. communication 2. trust 3. honesty TWO TRUTHS & A LIE [in no particular order]: 1. i've gotten in three fights in my life 2. i'm gay 3. i'm lost THREE PHYSICAL THINGS ABOUT THE OPPOSITE SEX THAT APPEAL TO YOU: 1. small breasts 2. muscles 3. earlobes THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE HOBBIES: 1. reading 2. poetry 3. caving THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO REALLY BADLY RIGHT NOW: 1. see depeche mode 2. visit ireland 3. run to her THREE CAREERS YOU'RE CONSIDERING: 1. courier 2. math major 3. automotive hydrogen tech THREE PLACES YOU WANT TO GO ON VACATION: 1. prague 2. ireland 3. eureaka THREE KID'S NAMES: 1. leah 2. hey get over here 3. m THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE: 1. breathe once more 2. talk to those who i cannot 3. turn 28 THREE WAYS I AM STEREOTYPICALLY A boy: 1. no commen sense 2. I think girls are hot 3. i speak before i think THREE WAYS I AM STEREOTYPICALLY A GIRL: 1. I wear make-up 2. i am very emotional 3. I cry during movies THREE CELEB CRUSHES: 1. ani 2. bjork 3. milla jovavich Current Mood: depressed (Comment on this)
Tuesday, September 27th, 2005
1:05 am	winter my blood used to flow in torrents... past my mouth and onto the surface from which i towered above. A random sink, the floor upon which i stood, my lap as i sat. i would let it flow so quickly ...as not to let it pry my lips i feared it's taste i scorned it's grip upon my throat. "lean your head back" Put this cloth under your lip" "apply pressure to the bridge of your nose" knowing that all these things would stop it's course. i liked the warmth upon my skin i longed to see what was inside me...i would marval at the grandeur of it all and i would wish for nothing more than it never to cease. But when winter comes when time slows and the sun fades away when nights are wrought with cold and biting winds i bleed frequent. So the touch, the heat, the caress,... of essence, the energy wjthin me is comfortable i know it will always be not far away.. and that is enough to drive a sane man mad for that which i hold dear is not suprising and not welcomed like the first snowflake grasping my nose and thursting winter upon me....i pryed open my own lips today and let it flow into my mouth and it tasted sweet ....can ones taste change? i think all things can change if they truly want to and today was that day i am not afraid anymore...............................nor should you be. I leave you with this as it is what's in my head and should be in yours as well: Front 242 Circling Overland 1-1-2029, the stars are shining bright Nerves connected to the center, we are tied to the machine Invisible and silent, circling overland The planemakers designed us to outturn and outmaneuver Intruders in the skies, intruders in our skies 1-1-2029, tonight the stars are shining bright Backbone of the fighter force, of the defence industry, Devoted tools of the power, warrants of the order 1-1-2029, tonight the stars are shining bright Silicon advisers leading the way We reach our cruising altitude 1-1-2029, West Europe, midnight Invisible and silent, circling overland Scanning, taping, filing, instantly checking Every human, car and plane of the quarters we survey CIRCLING OVERLAND CIRCLING OVERLAND Current Mood: and true (Comment on this)
Friday, September 23rd, 2005
1:29 am	nocturne I went out tonight for the first time in a long time. Did not know what to expect.... everything seems so distant and cold there were a few people i knew but noone i really wanted to talk to. there was one person though this guy named josh. He dates ruthina or somehow they are connected i would have liked to talk to him as he always has something intelligent to say. But she wouldn't leave his side. And i contemplated going over anyway but feared that she would want to talk to me too. I am no longer with anyone and for that reason alone socailly i guess it would be acceptable. But she did not respect the person whom with i was with throughout our realationship and i fear that talking to her would only cause grief. I like to think i don't hold grudges and don't judge. Yet i am quite fallable and just feel that due to the all together negativity brought by my actions prior and her disrepect for us i just don't feel that i will converse with her again. so how do i go talking to him again without talking to her. probably just being de da de. on to other things so i decided to be the watcher ... danced for a bit and just kept in a corner for the rest of the night all in all it was good to be back in a place of comfort. I so miss tha darkness the slow industrail beats random german rants half comprensive and half slur gyrating masses perpetual repeated undulating sway i would have liked to see sen but know that he works and would not come out so late...or valerie....or cora...or tina...or reggie...but i did see reyna and todd and grimm Current Mood: contemplative (Comment on this)
Saturday, September 10th, 2005
1:09 pm	hgg i just watched the hitchikers' guide to the galaxy on dvd awesome! (Comment on this)
Friday, September 9th, 2005
8:32 am	its a sad sad and slightly sad world found this on my roomates favorites http://www.fleshlight.com/main/video_byo.php (Comment on this)
8:24 am	in reply yes. (Comment on this)
Tuesday, September 6th, 2005
1:33 pm	my baby and then i went and signed at the dotted line like 10 times and i am now the extremely proud owner of a white pin stipe 1995 acura integra ls special edition "If you have the means you must get one it is so choice" Current Mood: accomplished (1 Comment |Comment on this)
9:40 am	biking i rode this morning 134 blocks up hill definately intense its like sex without the orgasms Current Mood: sore (Comment on this)
Saturday, September 3rd, 2005
9:44 am	cmhund you know for being so comepletely honest you were not very honest with me .... Current Mood: angry (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Friday, September 2nd, 2005
8:51 pm	yesh Current Mood: mischievous (Comment on this)
8:41 pm	been reading stephen hawkins the universe in a nutshell thats some intense reading and even though he toned it down a bit from his original i still feel like i skipped a chapter it just goes from moderately comprehensible to complete confusion still only halfway through but i like his theories on quantum physics... a good read to say the least Current Mood: complacent (Comment on this)
Thursday, September 1st, 2005
5:50 pm	life I have as of late been pondering alot of aspects of life and yet i am still stuck in that nonforgiving part the love the dating the significant other one... i just cannot seem to find taht which would make me feel whole though i have not actually tried i just feel that i am lost and will always be lost but why do we ry why do we strive to be more than we can why do we risk all things even living for a rare moment of bliss why do we search and hope and drag our noses through the mud looking fo that which we cannot have im going for a bike ride and im gonna ride til i die ride til i can't ride no more ride til my legs give up and leave me on the side of the road ride til i've ridden to you and then who know .....who knows Current Mood: angry (Comment on this)
Thursday, August 25th, 2005
11:25 pm	only There are only 4 questions of value in life, Don Octavio: What is sacred? Of What is the spirit made? What is worth Living for? and What is worth Dying for? The answer to each is the same: only Love! Don Juan De Marco to Don Octavio in the film Don Juan DeMarco (Comment on this)
11:24 pm	do or do not "To dare is to lose one's footing momentarily. To not dare is to lose oneself." Soren Kierkegaard (Comment on this)
11:23 pm	dreams This, therefore, is a faded dream of the time when I went down into the dust and noise of the Eastern market-place, and with my brain and muscles, with sweat and constant thinking, made others see my visions coming true. Those who dream by night in the dusty recesses of their minds wake in the day to find that all was vanity; but the dreamers of the day are dangerous men, for they may act their dream with open eyes, and make it possible. T. E. Lawrence (Lawrence of Arabia) from The Seven Pillars of Wisdom (Comment on this)
11:22 pm	really? How did it get so late so soon? It's night before it's afternoon. December is here before it's June. My goodness how the time has flewn. How did it get so late so soon? Theodor Geisel also known as Dr. Seuss (Comment on this)